Count Cyborgneticz @Cyborgneticz@scholar.social

If folks come into my mentions to debate me on political science or neoliberalism or any of my research - I will mute you.

Outside of my students, committee members, reviewers, editors, and randos at conferences - I don't have the energy for it.

Parasocial relationships are a lot.
Recently people have started expecting a lot from me, a lot more than I can give.
I love sharing. I love bonding with people. I love teaching. But I am a person with an illness that makes me seize if I get too stressed. And I'm getting stressed.
I can't handle the intrusions into my personal life or heightened expectations. I entertain a lot of that On Here because I'm worried about doxxing. I want to connect, but I also want boundaries.
So here's a bit 1/

Making a grocery list is just workshopping your voresona

https://medic.wikia.org/wiki/Main_Page

This is a wiki that street medics made and cultivated with helpful information.
It has advice on what to do during sabotage actions, arrestable actions, hunger strikes, and others.

I do Not recommend practicing things you see on here that you don't know how to do (C-spine stabilization for example). I Do recommend going through articles and seeing what you feel good with and sharing that info with your crew.

I love that journaling started with Puritans being like 'I need to record my failings'
which makes my current journal a historical reenactment

@evan
you should probably know about this but....herman might be a government drone spying on you https://birdsarentreal.com/pages/faq

I love that the internet is confused that the clear joke of birds arent real is a joke and things people are serious but also

https://birdsarentreal.com/

Love seeing my friends being successful and amazing. It's mad inspiring and gives me energy. Hell yeah.

putting a boiled egg in the gumbo, fully boiled. not like ramen boiled, where there's some yolk. fully boiled.

it's a nightmare.

KEEP THE DAMN POTATO SALAD OUT THE GUMBO

clever.
And now I have less than half a year to finish this, and at the end I'll be a political theorist - a political scientist.

I just want to be a political scientist.
It's be rough as the first out transgender person in the department, but holy fuck it's worth it.

phenomenology got thrown out, and now I'm here.
For each of these theories I wrote almost 50 pages of defense and exploration. I was quizzed over every inch of the theories and where I wanted to go for hours every week by different committee members. It sucked.
Every week finding out the gaps in my knowledge, being thrown books, to return and often be turned away. Again and again. Until I found something really unique and interesting and importantly
2/

it is cool that I'm actively becoming closer to being a political theorist but also

fuck

Sunday night scheduled dissertation terror

like I can do it, that's not a problem, but it's gonna be Not fun

ah fuck I got five months to finish a dissertation. jesus.

by that time I also need to be done with my dissertation in total so

wild that in six months I'll be moving - somewhere. no idea where. but somewhere.

ugh I'm just so ready to teach and next semester I get to teach two classes? wow.

helps that they are in a container beneath the bed and I Keep forgetting about them. I should prob put them in a bag

my partner still has no idea that he is getting a full set of park bicycle wrenches 😎 and I am a HORRIBLE gift hider

I tell people immediately what they're getting

Caving to get a haircut because my hair is finally at this length where it immediately flips up and it + the way I look right now is giving me Feelings
So I'm ready to get a haircut cause a month of anxiety and aaaaaaaahhhhh is too much