Telling my supervisor "reading your mind wasn't in the JIRA ticket" wasn't an option in grad school, but it's considered a skill in its own right in my current career.

Not communicating the expectations in advance is now seen as the failure. This change in perspective never stops being mind-reeling to me. I wish I could say that it's really highlighted how toxic my grad school experience really was, but I still look back at it with sadness and regret.

At least I now make more than my super.

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She's just so aware of *the system* itself, and has no patience or tolerance for it. It's always a little bit shocking to see and to talk about. I'm mad jealous of her ability to contribute in a way that I didn't even know I was supposed to. To just *get it*.

Meanwhile, my plan of saving up some money to support my bid to return to grad school turned into an alarmingly successful career in the private sector. People still try and level unspoken expectations, but now the paper trail governs all

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Watching my wife navigate grad school has been eye-opening. She just has an intuitive sense of what people are looking for from her. She's shown me more about the system than actually being in it ever did.

She's so incredibly good at navigating the social space and the unspoken expectations.

And she doesn't want to do it. She has no love of academic, nor of science, or even her field. She might not even stick with her programme.

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I had no idea what he even meant. I did what I was told -- what the people I trusted to show me how to be a successful academic told me to do. To have those people tell me, at the end, that, no, actually, that was the wrong thing to do was confusing, nonsensical, and absolutely devastating. And it's not like they discouraged me from applying.

I can genuinely say that I've never recovered from the feelings of rejection and betrayal. It was cruel, and callous of them, and humiliating for me.

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I never did figure out what I did wrong. I did my work in during my SMc, got great marks in my classes, met regularly with my supervisor, did what I was told were best practices, and wrote a thesis I was proud of.

And then got shot down when I applied for the next step. Suddenly, instead of having pages of suggestions and "next steps", my supervisor just had accusatory questions: "What original work did you bring to the project?" "Do you feel like you were actually proactive in your work?"

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#Academics, #failure, #jobs and the #privatesector 

I've lived vicariously through my partner for the last few years as she's worked through -- or, I guess, really more within -- her PhD.

It was my dream since I was, like, 5 to be a professional astronomer. University, PhD, professor -- my whole future was mapped out from that one goal, and when I didn't get accepted into the PhD programmes I applied to, it cut deep.

It also forced me into the private sector, so that I could continue to eat.

Oh, apparently she told the senior professor's post-doc. The PI, the meeting of whom the meeting was actually predicated on, never bothered to show.

Fun times. So glad she handled the double bait and switch like a real pro.

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I just listened to my partner tell a senior professor with a lot of clout in her field that she wasn't interested in being an author on a paper with her after she announced that they were completely ditching my partner's analysis.

I'm really very proud of her. I know doing that wasn't easy, but she defended her boundaries, and did it with so much more tact than I ever could.

I've been absolutely devastated by the collapse of the Arecibo radio telescope. Completely gutted. It'd almost like having it topple while still feeling bummed about it's decommissioning just made it all worse somehow.

Attacking science on social media: How user comments affect perceived trustworthiness and credibility

My partner is attending the Atlantic Canadian Studies Conference in Belfast, , in May, and I'm tagging along for my first trip south of the border. Anyone have any must-see locations between and Belfast?

Journal's reply to a request to allow deposit of a post-print copy of an article to an institutional repository:

"Our experience has been that most university libraries have access to [Project MUSE or JSTOR] so our target audience usually has access"

This, despite pointing out SSHRC (amongst many other funders) "open access within one year" publication requirements.

Super disappointing.

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